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Admiration
by
Jason Lavertue

 

     Brian licked the saliva from his lips as he watched the saw cut through the rib cage.   Congealed blood flew from the tip of the saw and bounced off the window.  The butcher’s apron was covered in dried blood and stringy byproducts.  The sight of all this violence was just what he needed.  It had been far too long since he had performed the beautiful art of butchering.  Brian was too engrossed in the carving of the cow to notice he had popped an erection that caused the crotch of his lint-balled sweatpants to protrude in obvious sexual arousal.  His breathing was heavy like that of begging dog.  Several old ladies had noticed his excitement and made a hasty exit from the meat counter.  The skinny butcher looked up from his carcass and held a bloody-gloved finger to signal Brian to wait a moment.  Brian nodded politely.  The man placed the saw down and exited the freezer.

      “What’ll it be buddy?”

      “I was just admiring your work,” Brian said.

      The butcher stared at him bewildered.

      Brian noticed the butcher’s curious gaze, and his cheeks reddened with embarrassment.

      “What I mean is, are you looking for any help?  I just got laid off from Morgan’s Department Store, and I need a job.”

      “Funny you should ask,” the butcher said.  “My part-timer just went away to college, and I could actually use a another hand.  You have any experience?”

      “I use to help my dad cut up our deer meat every hunting season,” Brian smiled.   Not to mention the eight bitches I’ve sliced up across Manchester, he thought.

      “Well, I’ll tell you what. You can run the counter and when things are slow I’ll train you to cut.”

      “That sounds good,” Brian said, using every once of his willpower to hold back his excitement.

      The butcher took his glove off and extended his hand across the counter.  Brian met it with his own and gripped it firmly.

      “Name’s John Rancor.”

      “Brian De Novo.”

      John smiled thinly and withdrew his hand.  Brian suspected John had heard about him but kept his mouth shut.

      “Come in tomorrow morning about seven, and we’ll get some paperwork out of the way and start your training.”

     “Seven it is,” Brian repeated.  “Thank you for help.”

          John shrugged his shoulders, placed his bloody glove back on his hand, and went back to his side of beef to make it into someone’s steak or pot roast. 

      Brian turned and strolled out of Rancor’s Butcher Shop and onto the bustling late afternoon streets of Manchester’s business district.  People filed past him, and he imagined they were cows wandering through a pasture.   He examined each one.  Some had too much fat others were too thin and stringy.  When he found one that was just right, he reached into his coat pocket, clutched the cold handle of his knife, and followed her. 

      Brian woke at five-thirty the next morning with a newfound meaning to his life.  She was the last, he told himself, as he stared deep into the eyes of his mirror image.  He turned the faucet on and scrubbed the dried blood from his hands.

      Brian stood at the entrance to Rancor’s shop and watched the people gliding by without any regard for one another.  They hurried to get to their meaningless careers earlier than the others.  What a pathetic existence, maybe I’m doing them a favor by killing them, he thought. 

      “No, no,” Brian mumbled to himself.  “It’s time to change that kind of thinking and become one them.  I have this wonderful new job, and I really should give being a career guy a try.”

      John Rancor turned the corner and hurried down the sidewalk like all the other zombies.   His thick down filled coat gave the illusion that he was larger than he was.  His thinning salt and pepper hair stayed firm in the chilly morning breeze.  He fumbled in his pocket for the keys and stopped next to Brian at the door.

      “How long you been here?”

      “Half-hour,” Brian said in a blasé tone.

      “Well let’s get inside out of this cold,” John said as he put his shoulder into the door to jar it open. 

      John flipped a switch and showered the room with buzzing fluorescent lights.  He walked over to the TV and turned it on.  The people on the other end gabbed about the local weather and current events.  John flipped up the drop down counter and made his way to the back of the store.

      “Wait here,” John advised.  “I’ll get the paperwork, and we can fill it out in here.”

      “Okay boss,” Brian said.  It felt funny to call someone boss; I’m use to being the boss, and not the bossed he thought.

      John came out with a couple pieces of paper and sat down on the stool near the cash register.  Brian leaned on the counter across from him.

      “I’m sorry,” John said.  “I’ll get a seat from out back for you.”

      “Don’t bother, this is fine,” Brian insisted.

      “All right, let’s get started then,” John pushed a paper and a pen over the counter to Brian.  “Just fill this out, and we’ll go over it when you’re finished.”

     Brian snatched up the pen and began writing.  John took out a set of butcher knives and began sharpening them.  The newswoman broke through the white noise of the shop with urgency in her otherwise pleasant voice:

 “Now our top story, Manchester Police officials have found what appears to be another slaying by the Manchester Mangler.  Three University of New Hampshire students have been found murdered in a parked car at Peace Park.  Although the murders differ slightly from previous ones, the Manchester PD believes that the murders are the work of the Manchester Mangler.  Captain David O’Hare said that three victims, two females and one male, were killed in the same grizzly manner as eight others in recent years.  He also stated that although there was a male victim amid the slayings, which is not in the style of the Mangler, it probably is a case of the victim being in the wrong place at the wrong time.  Stay with us throughout the morning for more updates on this breaking news story.”

          “Sick, isn’t it,” John said catching Brian staring at the TV.

      Brian returned his attention to his application.  Who in the hell did that, Brian wondered?  (I hate copycats.) He scribbled more answers on his application and slid it back to John.  John spun the paper around and examined it.

      “Brian, I need to ask you something.” 

      Here it comes Brian thought, “Go ahead.”

      “Are you the same Brian De Novo that was accused of being the Manchester Mangler?”

      Brian felt an urge to reach across the counter and slit the little bastard’s throat but instead he took a deep breath to calm himself.

      “Accused is right,” Brian began.  “But I wasn’t convicted.  I’ve been suspected of many murders.  When I was twelve, they said I killed my mother.  Fact is she blew her brains out with the same shotgun that I hunted with, and my fingerprints happened to be on the weapon.”  I haven’t lost the gift to tell a lie, Brian thought.  “I must confess that I did kill my father.  We were in a car accident when I was eighteen.  I picked my father up at a bar to drive him home, and I was rather hammered myself.  I slammed into an oncoming car.  I was the only one who was wearing a seatbelt as well as the only one to survive the crash.”  I wasn’t too drunk to know what I was doing though, Brian remembered.  “After getting out of prison for vehicular manslaughter, I got myself together and got a girlfriend.   She was the first victim of the Manchester Mangler.”  Guess she shouldn’t have fucked that yuppie and let me find out, Brian mused.  “I was acquitted because the prosecution didn’t have enough evidence to convict me but ever since then I’ve been the main suspect in every murder the police have deemed the work of the Mangler.  Every time someone is killed, local, state, and federal police organization harass me, but they never can pin it down to me.”  Brian knew they’d come calling about this murder too, and for once they would be after the wrong guy.  “So yes I am the same Brian De Novo the police have accused of being the Manchester Mangler, but no, I haven’t killed anyone intentionally.”  Since last night at least, when I dumped that chick in the trash bin after giving her a permanent smile from ear to ear, he thought.

      John stood up and walked around the counter.  He put a hand on Brian’s shoulder and gave it a reassuring fatherly squeeze.

      “That’s too bad,” John said.  “I was kind of hoping to meet the man whose work I’ve admired so much.”

      John grabbed a tuft of Brian’s greasy hair, yanked his head back, and slid the highly polished steel blade across his throat.         


© 2001
Jason Lavertue

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